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Kashdrawn, Cool



May 16th, 2007

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Haven't posted in a while, so here goes.

Kash is coming over tomorrow, but my American Gov final is that morning. It's a cocktail of anxiety and excitement.

Why didn't I do this paper three weeks ago? Four?

May 6th, 2007

priceless. simply priceless.

May 4th, 2007

it's like spam but better

Kashdrawn, Cool
A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?" Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you, but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the $20 dollar bill up. He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. Well," he replied, "what if I do this?" And, he dropped it on the ground, and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We can get to feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value because nothing or no one can destroy your inner value or worth.


It's a good story. Thank you, career dev 101.

These are lyrics to one of my favorite songs, "Sonic Boom." as heard by me, anyway.



May 2nd, 2007

So it's time for a little update. Mindset update perhaps. That's a good term for it.

College ends in one week from today. Then a week after that, finals. It's crunch time.

To-do list thingy:

-American Government
  -5-page Essay (if I get an A on this, I can skip the final!) Due Anytime, Bonus if handed in May 03 (tomorrow)

-Theatre research Due May 8
  -Read The Crucible
  -Watch the movie of the same
  -Decide on a scene to be read next Tuesday
  -Find related websites and Henrik Ibsen/Naturalism material

-Career Development
  -Piles of crap. Gotta itemize that list...
  -4 Career Evaluation Sheets
  -Resume Draft
  -Discussion Board Postings
  -Lots more :\

  -Online Mathlab Homework (do this Monday at school!)
  -Study/Review for Exam Tuesday on P- and t-Values (chapters 6 and 7)
  -Study/Review for Final (remember to look up steps for probability distributions!)

All in all I guess it isn't that bad. This list'll help me keep track of what I gotta get done still... and uh, to people reading this, this is why I'm disappearing from the internets for a little while. I need to devote myself to this work for the next week or so- then I'll be free to do whatever the Heck I want. XD Which is, of course, hang out with everyone. :3 

Speaking of hanging out, Kash and I are really getting along great... I keep finding more things to love about that girl. We're planning to visit again as soon as possible, which is likely right after I get done with exams... in fact, we're trying to work something out where she can stay for a few months. Gosh, that'd be neat, ne? If this goes right, she'll be staying at my house from mid-May to late July, when I'll be going to her home state anyway for Otakon. We'll probably get soooo sick of each other. XD It'll be AWESOME.

We're also planning to marry our Ragnarok characters soon. I really can't justify shelling out five million zeny to break off a relationship (that's freakin' ridiculous), but it hardly matters since we both made new characters recently; an agi monk for me and a vit monk for her. Haha, she even named her new character "Kashira Tarzhet." XD She's so adorable... I love that girl so much~

But for now, it's freakin' deadline time. Now or never. I need to sacrifice fun for now, and I apologize to my friends for not being around for them. Please take care for now, I'll be back soon!

PS: New icon! Kash drew it. :3 She really captured me well, I can't even begin to explain how she does it. XD

April 11th, 2007

Mmyep deleted.

April 10th, 2007

Kash and I had a nice visit.

To the people who live for scandal: we didn't do anything like that. Ok? Seriously. It wouldn't have been right.

... you know, I sure hope nobody reads this.

Now that she's gone, the darkness rolled back in. I miss her terribly. Hope she gets home/online soon, heh ._. and that she's safe...

I got a new icon, see?  I'm the one on the left. She really is sweet... ~~ look how docile and cute she drew me, heh.

If it seems like my feelings have just instantly swapped over to someone new, it's not like that. I dunno why I feel a need to type that here, but I do... in truth, the two of us had been rejecting our natural feelings for one another for months, if not years. They'd been lying repressed under the surface for what felt like ages, and... and now we stopped holding them back. It's "okay" now. Okay to love one another, after all this time. And it's very liberating... but it's going to take a while to get used to. Attraction or not, it's hard to accept these feelings as legitimate after so much time spent dismissing them.

...kissing is a lot nicer than I'd imagined, though...

April 5th, 2007

So I guess livejournal is the cool thing to do now'days.

I don't really like expressing myself online. It just seems like a desperate plea for attention and sympathy, and I don't want either of those things.

However, I think my viewpoint should be posted too.

WARNING: Long as all heck.

Two Years, Two MonthsCollapse )

What happens now, only time knows.

Thank you for reading.

~Elias D. Grevas

January 2nd, 2007

New Year

Kashdrawn, Cool
Hello, 2007. Only a day into it, now. Heh...

For years I felt like the new year was just another tick of the clock, a reason to buy a new calendar. For some reason, I feel different about that now... it could be the new college semester approaching, the new felings and love building on what's always laid in my heart, or the general financial aspects of it. I don't know, it just feels different.

Maybe that's why I'm posting something here. I almost never do, but today I felt like it. There's not even a reason for this, heh. I think that's why I like doing it. ^^

I'm ready for the new year. Well, I'd like to say that honestly, but I can't. No one's ever TRULY ready for anything, and if they say otherwise, they're lying. So, I won't lie. There could be anything at all waiting for me in this bright new year, anything dark or unsavory or unpleasant that I don't want to face, and probably a lot that I'd never think of until it's got me by the neck. But, in that respect, you could say I am ready. Ready for being unprepared, haha! It's either foolish or brilliant...

This song has been with me for a long time. Sonik Azure. It's like the song of my life. It has no words, just a feeling. It has gradual, natural progression that flows smoothly along with a sweet, poignant feeling... that feeling is constant, a feeling of past and present and future mixing into the now, radiating dimly in a deep green. But then, I guess Azure is a blue, isn't it. ^=^

I want to always remember this song. What it's meant to me at every stage of my life, and how it's still with me. I never want to know the face of the man who composed it, or what he was thinking, what he intended. I want to stay atached to my own image of the song... but now I'm making no sense, right? hahaha... |3 alright. I guess that's enough of that.

I'm going to work hard this semester. I'll probably quit my job. I have more important things right now than money... like my friends, and my schooling. money will come with schooling. It won't be much longer, really...

That sweet, sad, simple piano... shivering my soul with just a minor flourish.
This is who I am, isn't it... isn't it.


December 24th, 2006


Kashdrawn, Cool

I just read this weird trippy stick figure comic. I can't tell if it really had any wisdom in it, or if it was just a good pile of quasi-intellectual BS. oh well.

Here I am, uh... here. with stuff. I never saw the point to these online journals. Why put something up for everyone to see, if it's your deepest thoughts and worries? I can't help but feel that short-sighted people would be most hurt by rash action like that. They say once something is put on the internet, it'll never come off. Who knows.

Ain't that a pain, though? Got so much to say and I can't say it XD brilliant!

lol at a christmas.

Merry Christmas.

December 5th, 2006

Pointless post ok? ok


Semester's finally almost over. GOOD, OK? I'm not even so much happy to not have class hanging over me, as I am to just have my free time back. Time is stupid, and I will kick it. unfortunately I seem to be too low on time to do so ._.

Really, all I have time for is work, school, and a little bit of time on Ragnarok these days. It's irritating. But I felt like doing a little thing for this computer game I like, so there it is.

Sanitarum! Leave me be... SANITARIUM
just leave me alone

...wait sorry I didn't mean it come back

I also found out that my freaking favorite anime ever is on Youtube in english. Oh gosh I love it T_T The characters, the scenario, everything. It's called Shaman King.
For the premise, I found out what the creator's real idea was: What if all the religions that believe in mystical power were right at the same time? Then what if they had a FIGHT, all using their culture's myths and legends to battle each other? Add in ghosts, memorable characters, superb action, and some seriously deep undertones, and you have my favorite anime of all time. Yoh Asakura for life.

Alright that's all. bye
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